it shouldnt

It shouldnt be like this, its both at faults but mostly me. I couldnt wait to see you cuhz i really wanted to see you but then I just got heated cuhz of everything happened. I shouldnt treat you like how I treat my friends, their should be a sweat side for just me and you, if your putting me on a trial/test right now plz I want it to stop. If your trying to make me suffer the way i made you suffer it shouldnt be like that. I would want that chance, that last last final chance i swore to everyone that knows this I wont disappoint us again. What i said was a mistake it came out of my mouth, it was just that day- I dont mean you disappoint me everyday cuhs you dont. Its not time for me to go looking for trouble or do other shit, I still have feelings for you. Please stop this- making me suffer type thing, i had enough. I need you. If you really want to move on just tell me, theirs no reason for one of the other to keep going and making this happen. I think i fought enough, if you dont think its enough, I'm sorry. Even though I say all these things because of me being like, " I wont do it again." Trust me on this, if I cant go on without you- how I'm suffering. Its called I had enough all my intentions are to have you back.